I missed the calls for help from the family, partly because I was sleeping. Even 2 hours
away, I2 probably would not have been able to save you but I regret missing those calls.
The final years of your life, we didnt spend as much time together as we should have. It hurts me to think I was a part of the mental pain you were dealing with.
I love you with all my heart. I have so many memories as a child with you. Many were good but some not so much. Regardless, you were always there for me to nurture and discipline when needed.
I tried my best to help when Dad passed but I could have done more. You always said I was a good son but I didnt feel like I did enough.
Now, I know you are in heaven and at peace. You had such a good soul and always wanted to help others.
I'm thankful that I inherited some good qualities from you and Dad and I just hope that I can be the person that I need to be to be lije you and do my best to be better. I want my family to have a good life and it starts with me being a father.
Life us tough but priorities need to be aligned and as difficult as it is at times, family comes first.
I have not had the contact with some of the family that maybe I should have had in the past but I can only consider the future and do as best as I can each day.
Mom, I want you to know that I love you and miss you. I do everyday but especially today. I cant believe we lost you so young a year ago.
